Friday, 25 October 2013

Wow what a week

I genuinely do not think I have ever been as busy or as stressed as what I have been this week. That teamed up with not drinking, not eating chocolate and not being to exercise has made me one very grumpy girl.

I am missing sex now too. You guys probably haven't been counting like me but it has been 6 months. 6 long hard months. To some this may not seem long but to me who barely went 2 weeks without it before it seems to feel like a lifetime. Although I moan I am not too bothered. If I look at some of my friends Olivia it has been 8 months, the super sidekick it has almost been 9 and my old room mate it has been a year. Christ one of my friends it has been years and I mean years. Anyway I guess what I am saying is I shouldn't moan too much and is it really all that important if I don't have it.

Guess it is better than sleeping around with randomers - or is it?!


Tuesday, 15 October 2013

The final goodbye to Mr FWB

So after the last 18 months of me writing this, Mr FWB has played a huge part of the story. Well today is going to be the last time he is mentioned and I am putting all that to bed.

At one point throughout the time I genuinely thought I may have loved him and I am not sure I have said that to anyone actually I do not think I have even admitted it to myself before now. However what I really think I was in love with was the thought of him. I was so in denial about his ways that I built him up in my head to be something he wasn’t and was never going to be. I dreamt of us being together but in that dream he was not a womanising untrustworthy fool. He was a gentleman who cared about me and treated me like a princess. Anyone who knows me and knows him knows that this was a very elaborate dream.

Anyway I found out at the weekend that I think him and his new girlfriend are living together and whilst at first this really stung and I couldn’t help thinking that why wasn’t I good enough I soon realised that in his eyes no one was going to be. This girlfriend is the new flavour of the month and I am sad to say that knowing him she won’t be the only flavour going around in his life.

On Sunday night I was still a little hurt about everything and then I went on twitter and had a little sneak peak at what he had been writing (come on I am a girl, we are allowed to snoop) and like a slap in the face I was brought back to down Earth with a bump over something he wrote. It was such a short little statement but it was so him. It was everything he was about and for once I was so thankful that I wasn’t with him. This is the first time I have genuinely felt like this and honestly believe I have escaped what would have been hell. Yesterday morning I woke up feeling like a weight had been lifted and I smiled. I was honestly happy.

So this is it. Mr FWB will never play a part in this blog again. Time to close the book on that chapter and start living my life for the future

And just on the off chance his girlfriend is reading this – I just want to say good luck because you are really going to need it


Friday, 11 October 2013

Too busy to think

Sorry guys it has been a while since I last posted and I know that because whilst I was driving home from work I was thinking of all the things I had to update you on.

Let’s start with something exciting. I have booked to go to Madrid at the end of this month to see my old room mate for a long weekend. I cannot wait. I really need to get away and what a better way to do it J

Also I forgot to tell you but I am on a no drinking no chocolate ban for this month. It is quite literally killing me. The chocolate that is, I am not so bothered about the alcohol. As I fly to Madrid on the 1st of November I think I am going to celebrate in a spectacular style with a glass of wine in one hand and a giant chocolate cake in the other.

So now onto something not so good. I spoke to Mr FWB this week. First he contacted me about something work related and then we spoke about personal things. I am so frustrated with myself as I was doing so well. I need to be strong and just avoid all contact with him. Be strong Single girl you can do it!

Now back to another exciting thing. In 5 months I am heading to Australia. Ahhh can’t believe how quickly this is going. I have also decided that when I leave I am going to end writing this blog and start a completely new one. The reason for this is I don’t want my new adventure to blend in with this one. There have been some not so good things happen in this one and I don’t want to be reminded of them.

Hope you all have a good weekend. I am off to my super sidekicks baby shower. I wonder if I will start getting broody or just be jealous of all the pressies


Wednesday, 2 October 2013

Hump day

Good morning all!

It is hump day. Yay! For any of you who are unaware what that means, basically it is the middle of the week. So for Monday and Tuesday we are heading up the hump, Wednesday we balance on the top before whizzing down the other side to towards the weekend :)

Anyway what did the weekend hold in store for me? Friday I went to a concert in London which was good fun then Saturday I managed to convince my sister into inviting me over for dinner. All pretty tame really.

Monday was a sad day for me. My super sidekick left to go on her maternity leave so we had her leaving meal and hugged and got all emotional. I am happy for her and I find change exciting but isn't going to stop me missing her!

I also found out Monday that one of my friends marriage had basically ended which was a bit of a shock. I gave the person a bit of a pep talk as they said they were embarrassed it hadn't lasted very long but as I said as long as they put in the effort to try and make it work that's all anyone can ask and anyway who really cares what other people think!

Hope you all had good weekends