The final goodbye

Well this is it, we have finally come to the end of this blog.

It has been nearly 2 years since I started writing it and honestly it only feels like yesterday time has gone that quickly.

I am sure you will all agree there have been some interesting times mostly ones involving alcohol.

So for the very last time I will give you an update on everyone

Dana - Well she has gone through some relationships but we end her story exactly how we started it and that is with her being single. One day she will find her guy it just isn't meant to be right now.

Melissa - Off travelling the world. She will always be my inspiration when it comes to taking chances and following your dreams. Until we meet again carry on being amazing and stay safe. See you in Canada!

Olivia - Sailing around the world she also is living her dream. Fingers crossed when she gets to see the guy she likes again all will be perfect and they will fall happily in love if not then like the rest of us she will make the most of her life and not let being single keep her from doing what she wants to do.

Mr Wise - Tuesday he leaves to start his new life in Canada and I wish him all the best. He has been there for me throughout this whole blogs life and there isn't a person on this Earth who knows more about me than him. See you next year my friend!

And finally me - Soon I will be heading off on my travels and I cannot wait. I have had my ups and downs mostly involving the lovely Mr FWB but now it is time to pack up and move on. I am going off to find my Mr perfect where ever he may be.

Thank you everyone for reading this and giving me somewhere to rant and express myself. I really have enjoyed it and you have all been a great audiance.

Just remember, follow your dreams, take chances and most of all have one hell of a good time! Until we meet again!

-x-

That sliding doors moment

Yesterday was Mr Wises leaving drinks session

It was very messy to say the least. We started at about 1:30 and by 8ish I was suitably drunk. It was a great gathering and it just proves that he will be missed so very much. Me above most will miss him a lot as he has been with me through all the thick and thin and too be honest there are not many people in this world I would call a true friend however he is one of them.

So the sliding doors moment. Mr FWB was at the leaving drinks and like always was being very flirty and suggestive to me. I resisted the best I could however I tend to lose sense when I am drunk and it doesn't take much for me to be swayed into doing naughty things.

Anyway he left the event about 5 mins before I did however we were both catching a train home. Now I knew if I got on that train with him the night would end in the same way it always did and with me regretting things in the morning.

So I walked up to the train station still not deciding whether I wanted to get on the train or not and when I got there it was sat in the station waiting to leave. I had two choices get on the train and end up back at square one or stand by and watch the doors close.

I watched the doors close!

I hope you all had a great weekend - I know I certainly did and for once without any regrets

-x-

Woo hooooooooo

I'm booked! That's right people I finally did it.

My flights to Australia are booked and I really am going. Eeeeeek! It is strange after all this time to think I have actually done it. It seems like only yesterday I made the decision to go and that must have been about 1 and a half years ago.

I have also handed in my notice at work. That is really scary as I have worked there for 9 years and I have pretty much never been unemployed since I left school.

I am super excited though and know I have made the right decision. The envious comments from people tell me I am doing the right thing. One thing I don't want to be is one of those people who wishes she had.

So my message to anyone reading this. Do not just think you can, actually do. You will be far happier in life knowing you followed your dreams

-x-

Dana

So I had it all planned out. I was going to write this great ending post where I talked about all the people who had played a part in my blog and how their lives had changed and then BAM Dana hits me with it.

Her and the boyfriend have broken up. And to say it wasn't amicable would be an understatement. Basically it turns out Dana was not the only lady on his mind. There was about 4 other women.

Not only was the dirty dog cheating on her but he was actually dating one of these women making her think she was the only one too!

How he got away with it I will never know as Dana was with him on Christmas day so where did this other woman think he was?!

Just another reason why I am glad I am single. I won't be forever but for now it makes me super happy I don't have to put up with all that rubbish!

-x-

Woo hoo Melissa is home!

So guys I have had a bit of a nightmare with trying to write this blog recently. Firstly annoying work has been getting in the way. I have been doing stupid hours and not getting any time to myself.

Secondly the hotel I have been staying in does not have Wi-Fi in the room so I cannot even write this at night when I do get a bit of time to myself.

I have now resorted to using Mr Wise again to post as my computer does not like to let me do it myself.

Anyway now I have gotten all that out of the way I can start with my post. Melissa is home, yay! I am getting to see her tonight and I cannot wait. I am not sure how long she is going to get to stay with me for but we are going to make the most of it. I think it is only a couple of days as she wants to find work quickly but I am sure we will reunite again before I leave.

Speaking of leaving can I just say eeeeek! It is getting so close now. I am going to book my flight this week and once that happens it is signed and sealed! I really haven’t thought about planning but I need to start something soon. The one thing I am worrying about – how on Earth am I going to fit 2 years of clothes into one bag!

Anyway hope you have all had a good weekend. I have had to work boo. I am sure they will reward me in the end (yeah right)

-x-

The end is near!

So people this wll be my 195th post on this blog and I have decided that post 200 will in fact be my last one :-(

I need to put the past 2 years finally behind me and what better way to end it than on the 200th post.

Don't worry though we still have 5 posts to go and I will try and make them as juicy as possible. That obviously means I need to do some juicy things. Oh its a hard life.

So as I said - the end is near, but I am not ready to quit this completely just yet :-)

-x-

Time for an update

I thought it was time I did a little update on everyone in the group as I haven't done one for quite a while.

Well first up there is Olivia, now I really can't remember the last thing I wrote about her so I am sorry if I end up repeating myself.

So Olivia has been working on cruise ships for a little while now however before she left to do that the naughty minx had herself a little bit of fun with someone else staying in the same hostel as her. As luck would have it though the poor girl has fallen head over heels for this guy however now they have both been sperated by the sea. Fingers crossed they get to meet up again soon as she really does like him. How it would work out with then both being the other sides of the world to each other is anyones guess but I wish her all the luck!

Next there is Dana. Well what can I really say about her. She is still with the same guy she was with the last time I wrote about her and all seems to be good but I can't help thinking that she isn't getting any younger and maybe it was about time she did something about progressing the relationship. She is also being stalked by her cousins husband which always makes for good emails and texts. Lord knows what is what is going to happen there.

Finally there is Melissa. Well exciting news about her, she is coming back to the UK in 11 days. Yay! I wonder if she will meet up with any of her old conquests when she is here. Think she is back for about 6 months however obviously I will not be around for all that time. I am sure we can get ourselves into trouble somehow anyway :o)

I think that is all I need to cover off. Obviously if I suddenly remember anything amazing or if their situations change at all you guys will be the first ones to know!

-x-

Green is not a good colour for you

Before I start with today's post I just wanted to say HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

So last night was New Year's Eve and myself, some family and some friends all went out for the evening to celebrate the only way we know how to. With drinks and dancing!

It was a good night. Not the best I have ever had but partying on a beach with 50,000 other people is going to be hard to top. Anyway it was still good and I think everyone had a good night. There was something I did notice though which had crossed my mind before. One of my roommates (I will call her Rachel) is a little bit of a green eyed monster when it comes to going out and men. She does not like it when other people are being paid attention to and she tries to do everything she can to move them away from the situation.

She is not the first person I have met like this. A girl I travelled with did the exact same thing and it made nights out a little bit of a chore!

Now I don't know why they feel the need to act like this because they are both attractive girls and get a lot of attention from men anyway. I wonder if it is just a confidence thing and if it is then it is a real shame to be that way. Oh well each to their own I suppose!

Anyway guys more important things, I am going to Australia this year! YAY!!!

I hope you all had good evenings whatever you did and if you made resolutions then hopefully you haven't broken them (the 1st doesn't really count anyway)

-x-

Belated Merry Christmas

Hey all

Merry late Christmas! Sorry this wasn't actually on Christmas day however even though I managed to fill my car boot to the brim with things to take to my parents I actually managed to forget my lovely writing device.

I have been there since Xmas Eve and it was lovely to spend the time with them relaxing, eating and playing games. I am now back home now and just like every year it feels like all of it never really happened. Like it was some kind of dream or something. I do however have some lovely gifts to play with. Lots of new make-up, and for all you ladies out there you will know what it is like to get nice new expensive make-up. I also got another one of my favourite things, underwear! Who can ever have too much underwear. Certainly not me.

I am now not back to work until the 2nd of Jan so still have loads of time off to chill and enjoy myself. Starting with tomorrow. I am off to a spa and cannot wait. It is my last bit of luxury for a while as I really need to stop spending money and start saving for my up and coming little trip!

The next on the list after the Spa is New Years eve. I cannot wait for that one as I feel it is going to go out with a bang!

Hope you all had a great Christmas and are getting some well earned relaxing time in. I know I am!

-x-

Catch up

Sorry for being off the radar lately. I have been working away from home again and this week they put us in a hotel with no wifi in the rooms. I didn't much fancy sitting in the hotel reception writing down my secrets and confessions.

So confessions brings me on to the latest event in my life. Last weekend I slept with hotel boy. I don't really know why or quite how but it happened. I am not going to say I regret it as  honestly I don't however I do think I need to start sleeping with new people and hopefully the next time it will be with someone I am proud to tell you guys about.

Anyway more exciting things, my old roommate is coming home tomorrow and I am really excited. We have already made plans with our other old roommate for New Year which I am really looking forward to. It does however mean I have to get up early and get the house ready for her return.

Right I have to end this now as I have loads of Christmas pressies to wrap. Yay Christmas!
But I will give you a proper catch up with what is happening with everyone soon!

-x-

Thank you Mr Wise

So after my mini guilty meltdown last week Mr Wise came to my rescue.

He knew all the right things to say to make me feel better. I still feel bad however no where near as much as I did. At the end of the day - I am the single one. I am not the one who has to go home to my "loved" one and lie about where I spent the previous night.

The other thing he helped me with is get me my visa to Canada today. It was a race against time as they only release a small number of places and he sat there and waited for it to open and register me whilst I had to work. Whilst it isn't 100% confirmed yet, it is pretty much as good as done.

So people this means 2014 I shall be in Australia followed by 2015 in Canada, my life is hard isn't it.

To end this post I just want to say, Thank you Mr Wise. You have been a great friend and I will miss you when we go our seperate ways however watch out in 2015 as one day there will be a knock at your door and guess who will be stood on the front step :o)

-x-

We all make mistakes

And I have made an epic one!

To say I am upset would be an understatement right now. I am not sure how to say this and I know a lot of people are going to judge me for this and honestly I wouldn't blame them.

Friday night I slept with Mr FWB and I feel horrible about it. Not only have I let myself down I am also so in the wrong as he has a girlfriend which I am sure you all remember reading about.

What sort of person does that?! I will tell you, a mean horrible one.

I don't really know how it happened. It just sort of did and whilst it is no excuse I was very very drunk. He just wouldn't leave me alone. Telling me he loved me and that before he had chance to tell me he wanted to be with me I told him I was leaving to go to Australia bla bla.

Now I don't believe a word that comes out of his mouth but still he shouldn't have said those things.

The worst part is everyone we were with from work saw him kiss me and I know they all think I am so bad. Who can blame them it is true!

Anyway I cannot carry on writing this as I don't want to think about it anymore. I just really hope his girlfriend does not find out as she does not deserve this at all!

Sorry guys

-x-

Who would have thought?

So recently I have been looking at one of my friends and thinking of them in a different way.
It surprises me really as I genuinely would have never thought of them in that way. Honestly though I just think I am missing the attention of men and am craving something. That however is no reason to head to a place where I shouldn't really go.

So instead today I went shopping and bought myself some nice underwear. That should keep my mind distracted for a while - shouldn't it?!

Work has been crazy and wont let up for a while. Oh well not long till I head off on my adventure. Excited much!!

Have good weekends guys - I have to work :o(

-x-

(I have just realised that this never posted last weekend so I have posted it now)

Just not good enough

So I have just had a Skype session with Melissa and I hope she doesn't mind me telling you this but she was a little upset.

A guy she has liked for the longest time had just arrived at the pub she was at with his new girlfriend and this left her feeling very a little down in the dumps to say the least.

She wanted to know why she wasn't good enough and why it was never her he had chosen. I also should mention that they have been more than just friends in the past.

I think we have all felt this way at some point in our lives (we all know who I am talking about in my life). Anyway we have all felt this way and it is not a nice feeling at all but it is also not a true feeling either. We are good enough, we are just not right for that particular person. Obviously I tried to tell Melissa this but no one really wants to hear it.

They want to be told what is wrong with them and how they can fix it. Being told that it is basically the way of life does not fix things. However I genuinely believe you can only feel truly better about yourself when you finally find someone who really deserves you.

So this is a message to Melissa. You are good enough and one day just like me, you will find your Mr perfect! If all else fails we have each other!

-x-

Is it unfair?

So I have just been driving back from seeing Olivia for the last time in a long while and on the journey home I had a lot of time to be left with my own thoughts (never good).

I was reflecting on my life and mostly my love life and all I kept thinking was how all of my ex's were now happy and with someone else whilst I was alone. Now the alone part does not bother me, what really bothers me is why do they get to be happy when each and every single one of them were not exactly lovely to me and all left me with scars I will never get rid of.

Is that fair? Why do they get to have what they want and where is the karma?

The other side I guess is I do not know what goes on behind closed doors and they could in fact be miserable. We can but hope :o)

Also I believe my Mr perfect is out there somewhere and the world has a plan for me to meet him one day and stick two fingers up to those arses that did me wrong!

Happy Saturday night guys. Hope whilst mine is filled with thoughts yours are filled with alcohol and dancing!

-x-

Nervous

So yesterday I went through what can only be classed as pre travelling stage fright!

It was sort of one of those moments when you suddenly go "Oh Lord what am I doing". I just kept thinking what if it isn't like the last time I went travelling and I don't end up meeting anyone, or I can't find work and have to come home.

However after speaking to Melissa she reasured me that what I was doing was the right thing and that I was going to have a great time. I guess I just hope I meet people like her and all the other people I met whilst travelling.

Anyway it is the weekend. I am going to forget all about the stress of work and just relax whilst trying to learn how to type on the smallest keyboard ever (I have my new tablet ready for travelling and I am trying it out right now)

Hope everyone has a great weekend and just remember if ever in doubt - try it anyway!

-x-

Stuart

So I told you I met a guy when I was the plane on the way to Spain well his name as the title explains was Stuart.

Now Stuart was an interesting character and pretty much from the moment we sat down he started speaking to me. Now I personally am not really one for idle chit chat however I could tell that Stuart really just wanted someone to talk to.

After we did the normal introductions he went on to tell me all about his life and how he was actually on his way to see his girlfriend who he was in a very long distance relationship with. Long story short he really cared about her and wanted to be with her but just couldn't see how it was going to work. He felt that the weekend was going to be make it or break it. I gave him the normal advice of if it is meant to be then bla bla bla but in all honesty I didn't really know what to think of the situation.

Whilst the realist in me was thinking - it will never work and better to end it now the romantic in me was really hoping it had a happy ending. Mostly I was just annoyed with Stuart. He was 37 and had done very little with his life. He seemed like the sort of person whose life was only complete if he was in a relationship and therefore hadn't found himself as a single person. I think I may have said this to him however if I am honest he did most of the talking.

Anyway I got off the plane thinking how I was so happy I was making the most of my life but also I realised that my life was not the life for everyone.

I never did find out what happened with Stuart but I am going to hope that whatever the outcome he is happy as he genuinely seemed to be a lovely guy!

-x-

And relax

So the last time I posted I was sat at the airport ready to head off on my mini adventure. Well today's post is brought to you from the comfort of my slightly small incredibly packed flight seat. Obviously by the time you read this I will be home as even in this day and age we are not allowed internet on planes.

When I said I was going to fall off the no drinking wagon in a dramatic way I was not lying. The weekend was spent day drinking, eating tapas and chatting with some genuinely lovely people.

Friday when I arrived after having to negotiate my way across half of Spain with very little knowledge of the local language I met up with the girls I was staying with and we cracked open beers and wine and caught up on everything that had been going on. It was great. We then went out but I was so tired from my early start that I left to go to bed early.

Saturday and Sunday were spent doing some site seeing and stopping every so often for a beer or two. The weather was ok so it was nice to sit outside and relax.

I have realised that my old roommate whilst works very hard has in fact a lovely life and one I may look into when I have finished my travels.

Anyway I better put my phone away before the stewardess thinks I am trying to send some sneaky texts and takes it away from me.

I cannot wait to tell you about the guy I met on the flight out here. He certainly was a character.
However for now I will leave you with a little thought.

Good things do not come to those who wait, they come to those to work for them and aspire to be the best they can be

xx