Friday, 27 December 2013

Belated Merry Christmas

Hey all

Merry late Christmas! Sorry this wasn't actually on Christmas day however even though I managed to fill my car boot to the brim with things to take to my parents I actually managed to forget my lovely writing device.

I have been there since Xmas Eve and it was lovely to spend the time with them relaxing, eating and playing games. I am now back home now and just like every year it feels like all of it never really happened. Like it was some kind of dream or something. I do however have some lovely gifts to play with. Lots of new make-up, and for all you ladies out there you will know what it is like to get nice new expensive make-up. I also got another one of my favourite things, underwear! Who can ever have too much underwear. Certainly not me.

I am now not back to work until the 2nd of Jan so still have loads of time off to chill and enjoy myself. Starting with tomorrow. I am off to a spa and cannot wait. It is my last bit of luxury for a while as I really need to stop spending money and start saving for my up and coming little trip!

The next on the list after the Spa is New Years eve. I cannot wait for that one as I feel it is going to go out with a bang!

Hope you all had a great Christmas and are getting some well earned relaxing time in. I know I am!


Saturday, 21 December 2013

Catch up

Sorry for being off the radar lately. I have been working away from home again and this week they put us in a hotel with no wifi in the rooms. I didn't much fancy sitting in the hotel reception writing down my secrets and confessions.

So confessions brings me on to the latest event in my life. Last weekend I slept with hotel boy. I don't really know why or quite how but it happened. I am not going to say I regret it as  honestly I don't however I do think I need to start sleeping with new people and hopefully the next time it will be with someone I am proud to tell you guys about.

Anyway more exciting things, my old roommate is coming home tomorrow and I am really excited. We have already made plans with our other old roommate for New Year which I am really looking forward to. It does however mean I have to get up early and get the house ready for her return.

Right I have to end this now as I have loads of Christmas pressies to wrap. Yay Christmas!
But I will give you a proper catch up with what is happening with everyone soon!


Thursday, 12 December 2013

Thank you Mr Wise

So after my mini guilty meltdown last week Mr Wise came to my rescue.

He knew all the right things to say to make me feel better. I still feel bad however no where near as much as I did. At the end of the day - I am the single one. I am not the one who has to go home to my "loved" one and lie about where I spent the previous night.

The other thing he helped me with is get me my visa to Canada today. It was a race against time as they only release a small number of places and he sat there and waited for it to open and register me whilst I had to work. Whilst it isn't 100% confirmed yet, it is pretty much as good as done.

So people this means 2014 I shall be in Australia followed by 2015 in Canada, my life is hard isn't it.

To end this post I just want to say, Thank you Mr Wise. You have been a great friend and I will miss you when we go our seperate ways however watch out in 2015 as one day there will be a knock at your door and guess who will be stood on the front step :o)


Sunday, 8 December 2013

We all make mistakes

And I have made an epic one!

To say I am upset would be an understatement right now. I am not sure how to say this and I know a lot of people are going to judge me for this and honestly I wouldn't blame them.

Friday night I slept with Mr FWB and I feel horrible about it. Not only have I let myself down I am also so in the wrong as he has a girlfriend which I am sure you all remember reading about.

What sort of person does that?! I will tell you, a mean horrible one.

I don't really know how it happened. It just sort of did and whilst it is no excuse I was very very drunk. He just wouldn't leave me alone. Telling me he loved me and that before he had chance to tell me he wanted to be with me I told him I was leaving to go to Australia bla bla.

Now I don't believe a word that comes out of his mouth but still he shouldn't have said those things.

The worst part is everyone we were with from work saw him kiss me and I know they all think I am so bad. Who can blame them it is true!

Anyway I cannot carry on writing this as I don't want to think about it anymore. I just really hope his girlfriend does not find out as she does not deserve this at all!

Sorry guys


Sunday, 1 December 2013

Who would have thought?

So recently I have been looking at one of my friends and thinking of them in a different way.
It surprises me really as I genuinely would have never thought of them in that way. Honestly though I just think I am missing the attention of men and am craving something. That however is no reason to head to a place where I shouldn't really go.

So instead today I went shopping and bought myself some nice underwear. That should keep my mind distracted for a while - shouldn't it?!

Work has been crazy and wont let up for a while. Oh well not long till I head off on my adventure. Excited much!!

Have good weekends guys - I have to work :o(


(I have just realised that this never posted last weekend so I have posted it now)

Just not good enough

So I have just had a Skype session with Melissa and I hope she doesn't mind me telling you this but she was a little upset.

A guy she has liked for the longest time had just arrived at the pub she was at with his new girlfriend and this left her feeling very a little down in the dumps to say the least.

She wanted to know why she wasn't good enough and why it was never her he had chosen. I also should mention that they have been more than just friends in the past.

I think we have all felt this way at some point in our lives (we all know who I am talking about in my life). Anyway we have all felt this way and it is not a nice feeling at all but it is also not a true feeling either. We are good enough, we are just not right for that particular person. Obviously I tried to tell Melissa this but no one really wants to hear it.

They want to be told what is wrong with them and how they can fix it. Being told that it is basically the way of life does not fix things. However I genuinely believe you can only feel truly better about yourself when you finally find someone who really deserves you.

So this is a message to Melissa. You are good enough and one day just like me, you will find your Mr perfect! If all else fails we have each other!