Friday, 28 September 2012

The naughty bits

So I feel I may have not been completely honest with you all recently and may have neglected to tell you all the details with what has been going on. I am not sure why as I have never been that bothered about people judging me but I have decided to now confess all! That was after all the reason I started this blog.

Ok so I suppose the first part is when I first starting sleeping with Mr FWB again. I think I told you how that night we had gone out on a work dinner and ended up back at his. Well that is all true, however the bit I failed to mention was that we actually had sex in a carpark before we left town. Oh the shame and horror and the fear of any security cameras that may have caught us in the act. What can I say though, the hormones kicked in and the guy may be quite a bit bigger than me but he really didn’t stand a chance once I decided it was going to happen. Variety is the spice of life as they say.

Speaking of variety that now leads me on to my next confession. So I told you about the weekend my “friends” came down. Well once again what I may have forgotten to tell you was that night I had a one night stand. Yep that’s right, me! I say a one night stand as the only thing I actually know about him is his first name. I haven’t spoken to him since and I don’t plan to.

Do I feel guilty about sleeping with someone else aside from Mr FWB? Do I heck as like. I have no doubts in my mind that he is or given half the chance he would also be doing the same. Does he know what I am doing? No and I don’t plan to tell him. For now he is my back up plan and I want to keep it that way.

These may not seem that naughty to you but for me they are a little out of the ordinary!

I however hope no one disapproves too much! J


Wednesday, 26 September 2012

Bucket lists

I am starting to make a bucket list for my life! There is so much I want to do and see that I need to write it all down just to remember.

I think everyone’s bucket list in life is very different to the next persons. Melissa has one and it is very cool but it has things on there like “get married” and “have children”. I think it is totally down to the individual what they want to put on theirs however for me I will only have things that I can control myself. Getting married and having children involves someone else and therefore it may not happen. I want things that I can 100% achieve. Some things I put down may be quite hard to do and take me some time to actually get to do them but they are going to be things that with the right attitude and determination I get to one day cross off the list.

A few things I have come up with so far are;

Run a half Marathon – ok slightly cheating as I had signed up for this one before I actually decided to make the list but for me it will be a great accomplishment to actually finish so I think it deserves a spot

Skydive – I have always wanted to do this and I am hoping next year I will have the chance

Scratch off all of my scratch map – I am not sure if I told you I had one but basically it is a map of the world that you scratch off as you visit different countries. So far very little of mine has been done but my mission is to scratch it all, obviously excluding the countries you cannot get to (however I am going to try my damndest to get to them) J

I do have more but this post would go on forever if I told you them all so instead I will just write about them once they have been completed!


Monday, 24 September 2012

Finally I got some sleep

The past few weeks have been a lot of burning the candle at both ends. With the running and all the sight seeing Melissa and I have been doing I feel like I haven’t had a good sleep in ages. This weekend that all changed. I think Saturday night to Sunday morning I managed about 11 hours. J

So today I have come into work feeling refreshed and ready to start the week. Not really like me on a Monday I have to say.

Friday night I went for some drinks with Mr FWB and stayed at his. It was really good which means it is really bad. I think I need to back off from that one before I get too attached again.

Saturday was spent with Melissa shopping and then watching a film Saturday night. Then yesterday we had a Harry Potter marathon whilst eating pizza and ice cream. Very good day J

I forgot to tell you that last week I ran 10 miles! Without stopping once!

I have my half marathon in a couple of weeks and I cannot wait until that is done so I can rest! Lucky for me I get to go on holiday the week after.

Tonight I am off to see my brother. I haven’t seen or spoken to him in a while so it will be really nice to catch up. I am all about family so it is important that I get to see him as often as possible. He is a police officer so his shifts mean that I cannot see him very much!

Hope you all had good weekends


Wednesday, 19 September 2012

The people update

So my people update was kind of interrupted with the weekends drama but as promised here it is

Firstly I will start with Melissa. Recently we have kind of drifted apart a little and said some cross words that maybe we shouldn’t have. We have however talked about it all and I am hoping we can now move forward. She has been doing a lot of touristy things which is cool and on Friday has a job interview which fingers crossed she gets. She does however really need to get laid so that is now my mission!

Steven – What can I say about him! That boy is loved up. We barely see him anymore however I think he should be home more often soon as he is working on a new film. Will definitely have to arrange a roommate night out when he is back as there is a long overdue one.

Olivia – That girl really needs to get off her backside and find herself a new job where she doesn’t have to work weekends. I don’t get to see her anywhere near as much as I want to and that makes me sad L. However she has promised me she is going to start looking so hopefully something changes soon. Otherwise she is just trying to save to go travelling again. As for the men side there is no one around at the moment but she genuinely doesn’t get that guys just think she is way out of their league and not that she isn’t good enough.

Dana – She really is a funny girl. She is off on holiday in a week with a guy she just cannot make up her mind about. She likes him because she always has but can I see it going anywhere? I am not sure. Habit and easy comes to mind!

Mr Wise – I have mixed emotions about this one. I am sad because he is probably leaving me to move to a different country but happy because he is getting what he wants. I just secretly hope it doesn’t happen too quickly as then I get to keep him for a bit longer! J

I suppose I could update you about me but there isn’t too much to say. I am still talking to Mr FWB and think we are going out Friday night, but apart from that nothing exciting is happening. I am just trying to budget like mad to save and boy is that hard!

I hope you liked the update and I promise not to leave it so long before the next one!


Monday, 17 September 2012


People can be very funny sometimes. This weekend has really made me see that. It has also made me realise who are actually true friends and those who are misguided and not so good to have around.

I won’t go into too much detail but I had some so called friends come to visit me this weekend however after they left they messaged me to say that they basically had never liked me and the only reason they kept in contact was because of Melissa. This hurt a lot as I didn’t and still do not know what I had done to have this kind of outburst. Also their dislike of me did not stop them from taking advantage of me this weekend and having me arrange and pay for a lot of things.

Although I was very hurt by the things that were said it also made me realise that if they could be that vindictive to use me this weekend then they are not people I would ever want in my life. I feel sorry for their other friends because if they can do it to me then they can certainly do it to someone else.

I can only speculate on what the issue was and if it is what I think then it is incredibly childish and silly. I sincerely hope that they are happy now as they really upset me and if they are still not happy then they have gained nothing by being so cruel.

It did make me reflect on my friendships with other people and who is truly there for me. From this moment on I refuse to let myself be used by people and actually make an effort with all the people who have been there for me and never expected anything in return.


Friday, 14 September 2012

A very mini post

Ok so as I don’t want to bore people with blogs that have no point or meaning to them I am just quickly going to say I hope you all have a good weekend and I will do a really good catch up on Monday.

There is a few people I haven’t mentioned for a while so I will let you know what they have been up to and what my weekend involved. Hopefully there will be some interesting and eventful stories to tell J


Wednesday, 12 September 2012


I think trust has to be one of the biggest things in a relationship. It takes years to earn and seconds to throw away. My super sidekick told me yesterday about a couple of friends of hers who have broken up. They have been together for 15 years, engaged and it turned out the guy in the relationship had been cheating. The relationship has now ended which even though I do not know the people I still think is very sad. It however did not surprise me one little bit.

Nothing seems to last these days. I know I have blogged about it before but every day my faith diminishes more and more. Since ending my marriage I have seen so much more than I did when I was in my happy “bubble”. I honesty never realised people cheated so much and didn’t feel any guilt.

This leads me on a book I once read called the Agent Provocateur. Basically it is about a woman who works as a Honey Trapper (someone who catches men out cheating either by following them or showing interest in them). Anyway she is set a task to trap a very happily married man by the wife of said man as she believes not all men cheat and her husband would stay 100% faithful.

I won’t tell you how the story ends (just in case you fancy picking it up) but let’s just say I think if the right temptation is put in someone’s way it is extremely hard to resist. This is the same for men and woman.

Again this is another reason why I am happy to be single. I genuinely don’t think I could stand the worry and suspicion of someone cheating. I have been there before and it isn’t a nice way to live your life.


Monday, 10 September 2012

Thank god for Mondays – chance for a lay in!

What a busy weekend. I actually feel like I have not stopped once. Most probably because I haven’t stopped once.

Friday night we spent in town drinking and dancing the night away. There were no drama’s what so ever which made it a brilliant night J

We got up early Saturday and headed to London. After walking for 20 mins in the wrong direction looking for a hostel we ended up getting a taxi straight back to where we started from. This was in fact about 2 mins away from said hostel the opposite way. Obviously!

I was quite excited when we got in there to drop Melissa’s friends bag off as although I travelled for 3 months I never once actually stayed in a hostel. It was different and I am not sure if it is somewhere I would want to stay on my own. I could definitely do it with someone though.

Once we finished up there we headed to the London dungeons. It was brilliant. For anyone who doesn’t know it is basically all the bad things that have happened in London under one roof. Jack the Ripper etc. It was really interesting with an added bit of scariness to it as well.

I left the girls after this as I had to get back home. Saturday night was spent having a bbq at my sisters and then a sort of early night.

On Sunday I had to get up at 6:30am to go off to my bike course. It was so good and I learnt a lot. I would advise anyone to do it. However after 8 hours of riding my body is now in pieces and all I want to do is lay in bed.

Damn work always getting in the way of things J


Friday, 7 September 2012

Happier times

It’s the weekend. Yay! I have noticed that this comes round very quickly and even more so since I started writing this blog. Isn’t it funny that when you are younger you wish time away until you are old enough to drive and legally drink. I actually woke up on my 17th birthday upset because I wasn’t 18. Oh how I wish I could go back to being 17.

I do wonder if I knew then what I know now if I would have done anything differently. I am not really sure I would have. I quite like how I have turned out (other people may not agree) and I am not sure I would be this way if I hadn’t experienced everything I had. Who knows! However I am a big believer of not living with what if’s.

So this weekend!

Tonight I am hitting up town. Melissa has a friend over from Canada so we are showing her the delights of where we live (I hope she doesn’t have high expectations). Tomorrow I am off with them both to London to do some more tourist things and then Sunday I have a bike course to go on. Did I mention I can ride a motorbike. I can’t remember.

So once again it is another action packed weekend. One day I will get a lie in!

I suppose if you are not living life to the max you are not really living J

Have a good weekend all!


Wednesday, 5 September 2012

Sad times!

I thought I would give you a quick update to say that sadly my poor dog was put down yesterday L

It is never easy having things like that happen but you have to have a good cry, dust yourselves off and pick yourselves up. There is nothing more that can be done.

I have been through quite a lot of rubbish things in my life (other people however have certainly had it worse) but I am always asked how I am so strong about them. I am not really sure I am but I do not see the point in giving up. You can be sad for a little while but as my Dad has always said – If something is wrong and you can fix it then do, however if something is wrong and you can’t then you have to get over it and move on.

I am not going to say much more today as I am still quite sad about it all but I promise to give you a much better more upbeat blog to read tomorrow! J


Monday, 3 September 2012

The good, the bad and the dam right painful!

What a weekend. It was the most emotionally tiring weekend ever!

Friday night was great. I went out with some friends from work, didn’t drink and ended up laughing more than I have in a very long time.

Saturday morning I had to get up really early to go to London with Melissa, my Mum and my Sister. First we went to Madame Tussauds which was actually really good and nothing like I thought it would be. Then we went to the theatre to watch Ghost which was amazing. For anyone who hasn’t seen but loves musicals this really is a must. The effects were brilliant and I won’t spoil it but there are some “can’t believe your eyes” moments.

My Mum gave me a bit of sad news when we were out (yep she picks her moments well). My lovely dog was quite poorly and it wasn’t looking too good. He has been in my life for 11 years and anyone with a pet knows that they are not just that and they are actually part of the family. Anyway she said they had taken him to the vets and had been told he had a tumour which could burst at any time. I am not letting it upset me too much as it could happen tomorrow, next month or even next year. We don’t know so I will just make sure he gets lots of my attention when I am there!

Saturday night I tried to have an early night as I had a very early start Sunday. This was however disrupted by the roommates forgetting their keys and having to phone me to wake me up. I would have loved to know where they would have slept had I not been there.

Sunday I got up at 6am. I am told this is a normal time to get up rather than get in (who knew). Anyway I got up at 6 and headed off once again to London to watch the Paralympics. It was without a doubt one of the most inspirational things I had ever seen and set me up with the right attitude in the afternoon to run 8 miles without stopping.

Last night I decided to have a bath, something I haven’t done in a very long time (I am a shower person) however when I ran it I went to get in a realised it was cold. I put this down to timings of the hot water coming on and decided to leave it and have my normal shower in the morning. Well this morning I got up ready for my nice warm shower only to be met with cold water once again. Our boiler had decided to stop working. Wonderful!

The rest of my day so far seems to have gone by without any more problems. I am aching like you wouldn’t believe from my run and I do not advise wearing cheap shorts if you are ever planning on running a distance as I am currently walking like John Wayne but fingers crossed that is the worst over with now!

Hope everyone else’s weekends were good and a little less emotional than mine