Confessions pt 2

That’s right I have a confession to make. I have once again fallen to the charms of Mr FWB and slept with him! Whoops

You are all probably smacking your foreheads and shouting why. Well I have come up with an answer to that one (and no I am not just trying to justify it).

I don’t want a one night stand and as I am going away next year I don’t see the point of starting a new relationship with someone. He is just easy and by now I know exactly what I am getting. Nothing! I guess also I think to myself I have done it so many times that what does one more time hurt.

Am I stupid – most definitely

Do I regret it – not at all this time

Will I do it again – More than likely

I honestly don’t believe it will stop until the day I leave. Or unless he actually manages to find someone he wants to be with and be faithful.

On a brighter note I managed to run 6 miles again last night! Yay for me! That hasn’t softened the blow of what I just told you has it.

Ok I am going to back out of this blog carefully and without saying another word!

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Everyone loves a long weekend!

This weekend was great! I have to say it was one of the best I have had for a while. Saturday saw me turn into superstar and had me recording my own song in a real studio. It was so much fun and really professional. It gave me a good idea to how the whole process works. Even though I won’t be the next Lady Gaga I still enjoyed the whole experience.

Sunday I went to a festival and it was brilliant. We were so lucky with the weather as it had rained all of Saturday but Sunday the sun shone the whole day J

Yesterday I mostly spent my time cleaning the house (I know rock and roll) and then I went for a 6 mile run. To think I couldn’t even run a mile without stopping not that long ago 6 miles is a huge achievement for me.

I cannot really think of anything else to report on. I am not sure if that is a good or bad thing. I normally seem to have more to write about when things go wrong. Maybe I should just be happy that the weekend didn’t throw up any dramas.

Even better as it was a bank holiday I only have 3 and a half more days at work till the weekend (not that I am wishing my life away)

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Drinking on a school night should be banned!

Last night I went out for a work dinner. It was supposed to just be a quiet dinner and a relatively early night. Not so much. I ended up getting in about 1 in the morning, pretty drunk and high on life.

I was high on life until I woke up this morning and felt like something had died in my mouth and remembered I had to go to work! Life sucks. L

I have pretty much spent all day feeling sorry for myself refusing to work and watching the clock counting down the hours till I can crawl back into my bed!

I have however come across the funniest website I have seen in a long time and just had to share it with you http://dog-shaming.com/

Anyone with a dog or has had a dog is going to appreciate each and every single one of these!

So the weekend is here. Tomorrow I have my big singing debut followed by a night of TV watching and dinner at my sisters. Sunday I am off to a festival for the day so will pretty much be drinking, listening to hopefully some good music all whilst trying to avoid the rain.

Monday I shall sleep. All day long! J

Have a great weekend guys

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Just a little story

I want to tell you guys a story which Olivia told me not that long ago. I hope she doesn’t mind me telling you but I really think it reflects on how I see life at the moment.

Her Granddad worked for a car dealership for years. I think it was Ford (I could be slightly wrong with the exact details) anyway he worked long passed retirement and late into his life. When he finally did retire he treated himself to a new convertible BMW. Obviously having worked for Ford he had always owned Ford cars. Secretly though he really wanted a BMW. Anyway the time came for him to finally have what he wanted and near the end of last year he bought his dream car.

The months passed by and he drove it around with pride but because of the weather (snow in the early months and none stop rain in the later ones) he never got to put the roof down. The one thing he had always wanted to do. Sadly he passed away a couple of months ago. He never got to experience driving around in his dream car with the roof down in the sunshine.

When she told me this it made me really sad but also it just made me really determined to not put off anything until it was too late! Hence my travelling and seeing the world plans.

As the great James Dean once said “Dream as if you'll live forever.  Live as if you'll die today.”

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The plans are being made

So I have decided that this time next year my travels will begin. I need about a year to pay the debts I have and then have enough money to head off and not come back for a while. Yesterday I put together a plan of what I wanted to see and how long I am planning on spending in each place. For a very short moment I had to check with Melissa on whether she thought I was too old for all this and she soon slapped me in the face and told me not to be so silly.

I am not cut out for this life of 9-5 (well 5:30 in my job) and know there is so much more out there to see and do. To say I am a little excited is a slight under statement however due to it being a year away and I don’t actually want work to sack me, I have to keep it all a bit quiet! Boo L

Now starts the fun bit, saving! I have a bit of a plan in place of how I am going to manage it and Melissa is going to give me a weekly allowance so I really stick to it. This Friday we are going to start playing the lottery. You know just in case J

I cannot believe it has been nearly a year since I booked my flights for my last travelling experience. That just shows how quickly time goes and I do not want to waste another minute on doing nothing.

Ahhhh I am sooo excited!!

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I kissed a boy and I liked it!

Woo hoo finally the last person I kissed is not Mr ex FWB!

That’s right, Friday night I kissed another boy. I am told he was a very good looking South African but I cannot confirm this as I can’t really remember. I wasn’t even that drunk, it just all happened really quickly! Anyway I am pleased as this is the first stage of my baby steps towards getting Mr ex FWB out of my life J

Someone even mentioned to me about Mr ex FWB and the girl from work and where as I would have normally run off crying to my bed, I just shrugged it off. I am slowly getting there I think.

So back to the weekend. Friday was good fun. We played Flip Cup and then headed into town. Aside from kissing someone there isn’t much else to report.

Saturday day Melissa and I tried to go to do some sightseeing however we ended up nearly gate crashing a wedding. Whoops. Instead we just went food shopping. Rock and roll, I know.

Saturday night I headed to my sisters for a BBQ and some karaoke. Warming up the old vocals for this weekend.

Yesterday me and Melissa just sunbathed in the garden and watched a couple of films. Very relaxing which was nice.

Dana messaged me Saturday to tell me how much sex she had been having (yep she does that occasionally). She has still been meeting up with the old flame and apparently they had sex over his car, in a field and in the sand and sea! At least someone is getting some I suppose! I really have no idea where this is going for her but as long as she is having fun, who cares!

I think that is all I have to report for now. I hope everyone had a good weekend and enjoyed the sunshine (if you had it of course)

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It’s Flip Cup time

Ok I am going out! We all knew it would happen. I don’t know why for one second I thought I would try and stay in when everyone else was out.

However before I go out we will be entering into a game of Flip Cup. What is Flip Cup I hear you ask (as has so many other people when I have told them). Well it is a drinking game where you are in teams, you down your drink, slam the cup down on the edge of the table then flip the cup over so it lands upside down. Once you have managed this and it isn’t as easy as it sounds (I know as I was practising last night) the next member of your team goes. The winning team is whoever manages to finish all their drinks first. Simples!

Once Flip Cup has finished and we are all suitably warmed through with alcohol we will be heading into town. I am half tempted to leave my phone at home so there are no drunken mishaps but I am not sure how sensible that idea really is.

Tomorrow night I am off to my Sisters for a little karaoke session. I am recording a song next weekend so need to warm up the old vocals.

I hope everyone’s weekend is really good and I really hope mine is better than last Friday. Keep your fingers crossed for me J

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